2010 and the End of the Semester

So I'm kind of behind (me, never! Nooo!). But I just kind of wanted to reflect on things and the end of the year.

It's been a hell of a year! End of the semester, 4.0, woot! I'm glad that everyone did well! I'm just ecstatic about getting through and not going crazy from lack of sleep and over load from working and Megan and school.

What did I learn? I learned that being a librarian is harder than I thought it would be. There are ethics, and problems, and questions that I never even considered. I also learned that I don't think I want to be the librarian that I "started out" to be. I was thinking, maybe work with kids, maybe in a public library. But, as we got into the semester, I started to really miss my history. I yearn to learn about history and to work with it.  It is my passion. Little kids are awesome, but I could live without going into a public library and dealing with young children, I could not live without history. So going for the CAS in Cultural Heritage Preservation definitely threw a hiccup into my plans, but I think it's going to make my scholarly life better and more fun. And it will, hopefully, lead me to a job that will make me much happier.

So, now it's time to get ready for another year. My resolutions for 2011 are:

1) Get more organized so maybe I can spend some more time with my daughter during the semester. That's the hardest part, really, is being "away" from her even though we're in the same house. I find myself not willing to go anywhere because I just want to cuddle with her on the floor and watch "Toy Story." Need to STOP THAT! It's killing my whole "networking" needs.

2) I'm taking 3 courses this semester, which is going to be even tougher, but I can't wait! So I really need to get on the ball NOW with things! I'm going to try really really hard not to procrastinate as much this year. Like, not finishing up my final edit of my Pathfinder the DAY that it's due.

3) Time to be an adult. Well, a more communicative and "go get 'em" adult. If there is something that I want to do (like the MUS 500 course in NYC next summer), then I need to bite the bullet and start making the phone calls. I've always been someone who has to "wake up" on the right side of the bed in order to be an adult and get things accomplished, that needs to stop! NOW! Like tomorrow! MUS 500 may have slipped away from me because I've allowed my laziness to get ahead of me, and that needs to end now!

4) I need to learn how to "connect with my community." I've blown off chances (usually cause Meg was sick, but still, I could've gone) to mingle with my fellow librarians or to go to talks on campus. Not because I don't want to hang out with those people or because I don't want to go to the talks, but because I just want to be lazy with my kid or boyfriend because I've "earned it." That needs to stop ASAP! I have not "earned it" until I have a job that is what I want to do with the rest of my life and will pay off all these college bills and Megan's. I need to build my network here so that way I can actually have a job when I get done with college. Most of the people I talk to who don't have jobs in there "field" are people who were like, I just need to go to school, that alone should get me a job. It sucks, but it doesn't anymore. You have to throw yourself out there. I need to do that this year like never before.

5) And my final resolution/plan, to get out of my current job and into a job with more flexible hours in order to have more time at home when no one is around. I can't tell you how much I get done when NO ONE is here. It's sick! I need to somehow keep my current healthcare (with my ADHD med coverage), but work lesser hours (still keeping up with my bills & Meg's Healthcare), and keep me home during the day (for the most part) when Mom is at work and Meg is at the babysitters. I will figure that out somehow!

Okay, I think that's it for now/ I also need to start blogging more in order to help myself stay focused and to think more about my library stuff. It's easier to reflect when I start rambling, because I re-read and think and write. It's the one thing I love about blogging, when I edit I learn more. AWESOMENESS!

Lot's of goals for the new year, hope I follow through with some of them!